HARBIN HOTSPRINGS = "HEART CONSCIOUSNESS"?

my ass...

my daughter and i Live in marin county and i direct a state licensed child care called Daydream.
i have many talents and gifts that i share within community.
i am a single mother and have been for twelve years without support.
i have been paying 2200 a month in rent plus bills yet when the storm came we had no heat or a way to cook for days.
i feel very tired of consuming so much to end up broke so i put in my 30 day notice on this home on january 1 meaning my daughter and i need to find a more efficient way to Live happily and in service by the 1st of february.
as well, i have been actively healing from recently realized child sexual abuse so i feel more vulnerable and more tired than ever.

i sent an email out to many friends for suggestions and 3 of them wrote back asking if i had considered harbin as a place to reside and work and heal.
i have never been to harbin hotsprings but felt it incredible that the Wind spoke to me thrice about it as an option so i heeded and called them up.

the "seraphim type", higher than thou, treatment that i received from the people in position there in the last couple of weeks has been startling and dramatic.
my genuine curiosity and Hope was met by hypocritical hierarchy.
they discriminated against me before i even got there for having a daughter and for needing healing.

i have come to Be greatly disturbed by their false projections of "Heart consciousness".

www.harbin.org/hccnacob.htm

i asked to come visit the land and shake a couple of hands for a few hours in the name of whether or not we would find that we did, indeed, want to apply for residency there.
nope, not permitted to do so without paying full price for both me and my 11 year old daughter.
just to walk onto the land!?
nope.
that is insane and unjust!
i told them that i did not have the money to eat much right now and that paying for gas was a stretch but they did not care.
i did not want to soak or stay overnight.
just a tour, please, on the sacred green damp Earth (that they do not and have not ever truly owned) and an interview.
i was told "we are not a charitable organization" despite their NONprofit, "Heart consciousness", status.
they have no scholarships for people in my position who could really use a dose of minerals and spring water but are funded to reach out and see the Oneness in All Beings. THEY ARE A CHURCH!!! what a selfish crock...

it seems to me, very clearly as i drew the owl card in reference to this, that the wind blew the name of harbin to me so that i could blaze through their DECEPTIVE facade.
now, i am called to write about it and spread the word because of how discouraging and appalling it was for me.
i called them in a time of much Hope and vulnerability and they discouraged me over and over again.
they invalidated my need and disregarded my plight.
"we don't have any therapists here", "it is difficult to get accepted with a child", "we have a VERY selective process", etc.
not once did any of them say, "welcome to you and your daughter. come. see what we are about and let's go from there."
they said ABSOLUTELY NOTHING of the sort.

i am glad to hear that they are are "tight" financially. it may have something to do with their attitudes and Self righteous behaviors toward others whom they perceive as lesser than them.

it hurt feeling their discrimination and blatant disregard when i called with so much innocent excitement (my daughter and i both).

this posting is meant to challenge their structure with a fierce example of how they truly are, underneath it all, and when it comes down to it.

i see clearly and i will not be supporting that "community" on any level.
in fact, i will be spreading the word about my icky experience from here forth.

i realize how much passivity exists in most of the people who go there especially if they do not concern themselves with such things as poverty or struggle. i realize that these words will not stop the "regulars" from going for their monthly soak. i see how many people are so willing to just turn their heads and pretend like they do not even see anything unjust in this area if it does not serve them in the long run.
so Be it.
it matters not to the Universal scheme of things.
what goes around comes around.
period.

Peace.